Posts by Aprostate Exam

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A question for the shunned re: hide or seek

by dubstepped in

so here's my question as a newly daed person that is summarily shunned.

do you hide from family and act like you don't exist or do you let them know you're still here and seek them out?

they want you to be dead, like you no longer exist, because strict avoidance makes it easier on them.

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I outed myself to my fanatic mother and faded. She regarded me as DA'ed but never outed me. She exhibited her shunning and I proceeded to tell her that I would never ever bother her again. She held her ground and I stood mine. The love of my wife and children got me through it. Years later she texted me that she loved me, and allowed herself to be a mother again. Although dry and disconnected as she always was, she is now back and takes some interest in us. What really pisses me off is that she is still on her "donate everything to the WT when she is gone"plan..

Starving them of our presence and attention won my war. No calls, texts, visits, and when we accidentally bumped into them, we avoided them.

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All It Takes Is ONE!

by John Aquila in

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ive been reading all these posts about bethelites and special pioneers being kicked out in the street and being forced to get a job to provide for themselves..

and im trying to put myself in their situation and feel the emotions that must be going through their mind.

what if my wife and i both dropped out of school to pioneer and got married at 18. and what if we were very faithful in listening to everything the organization says.

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Amazing you thought about this, and I've had feelings that one day someone would mentally break down and head to N.Y. , Nice scenario John, we loved it. Sad to think that people could loose it because of these bastard GB.

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Mass disassociation pact...

by freemindfade in

any takers?

we can pick a date and pull the plug?

lol .

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My wife and I would, but her parents/my in-laws would suffer extremely. We are the only ones here for them. Right after they pass away, we will be all out with christmas tree and all.

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Dreaming

by Sabin in

friends i have question to ask.

i suffered with horrific nightmares for along time.

i`m talking years.

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You may just be more conscious and your sensory abilities and you were formatted to fear many things. In this case your own death. Do you have a phobic tendencies against animal attacks?

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What is the most bizarre counsel you received as a JW, from a JW?

by Funchback in

there were many addressed to me.

for example, i once had a sister tell me i was gambling because i liked playing skill crane (the machine where you have to try to pick up prizes like stuffed animals) at the arcade.

i then fired back a her: "you saw the r-rated movie 'backdraft.

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At get togethers, I danced a lot and with many sister friends. So one night at a get together, the same bastard elder from my previous comment came up to me, pulled me to the side and said, "brother you move your body and hips too much." I answered, "But this is salsa dancing brother." He pissed me off so badly that I moved even more exaggeratedly as we passed in front of him. Yes, now I know he was for sure looking at my C*ck and B%lls.

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The bridge burning has begun.

by sparrowdown in

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i was feeling particularly hopeless about the whole jws being assholes thing and sick to death of pretending so ....

i rang my sister and told her that i no longer believe jws have the truth and the phone went silent, when i asked her to say something she just said if that was the case then she would have to hang up on me and then proceeded to indeed hang up..

so i texted her back immediately with fu..

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I went all out like Sparrowdown. But I let it out at my regular pioneer mother, 8 years ago. I thought that she would for sure out me to everyone. I was going to drag my faded sisters with me since I knew they celebrated all sorts of sh*t. Ohhh, but my mom never bothered to out them because she worked for them. Recently she texted me that she loved us and now we speak again. To my surprise she never reported me, and My wife and I ended up fading comfortably. My mom leaves out all society, JW talk now. I got my family back. I hope you get yours back soon sparrow.

It felt great for me at the beginning as well, but as time passed, I went through a death like grieving state. I then started forgetting my mother and father, and began getting closer to my wife's family. I also integrated myself in college classes. Get a guitar, piano, violin course at a college. Learn to paint, make new educated friends. All these things helped me. P.S. Make friends with a psychologist and take psychology courses.

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What is the most bizarre counsel you received as a JW, from a JW?

by Funchback in

there were many addressed to me.

for example, i once had a sister tell me i was gambling because i liked playing skill crane (the machine where you have to try to pick up prizes like stuffed animals) at the arcade.

i then fired back a her: "you saw the r-rated movie 'backdraft.

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I was the assigned reader for the Witchower on a Sunday for the study. I wore modest suits and my mom always made sure I looked spiffy. A bastard Elder came up to me at the end of the meeting and told me that I should cross my legs when participating on the platform. That disgusting bastard was looking at my C@#k and B%#ls.

Some Idiot Elder that would make up sh*t as he always got into doctrinal pickles. This elder told my mom and I that we would make it into the new system if we turned at least one worldly person into a Dub.

Also, my mom had me burn some Cabbage Patch Kid dolls, because Brothers said they were demonic.

Did anyone ever hear the stupid story about the kid in a hall who was sleeping on the floor between a row of seats? He woke up crying because his Barney plush toy woke him up and ran out of the hall laughing?

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Does anyone pray and if so to who?

by duc007az in

it's been years since i've prayed and the last one i prayed to was the god known as jehovah.

just wondering.

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I surely doubt there is a loving god that looks out for people in need or in danger, many examples to prove that. So just in case there is someone/something out there that called on my existence, I pray, I do a short prayer in my classroom during the moment of silence. I don't pray to the name Jehovah anymore, I pray about my wife and children's safety to "creator" and instead of Jesus I use a very generic "your son given in sacrifice, and I say, "We thank you", at the end." If there is a god, then I am sure he knows my good heart and that I am directing myself to him as our only creator. Since "Amen" may have origins with "Amun Ra", an Egyptian deity, I stay away from it.

With Osiris, Amun-Ra is the most widely recorded of the Egyptian gods. As the chief deity of the Egyptian Empire, Amun-Ra also came to be worshipped outside of Egypt, in Ancient Libya and Nubia, and as Zeus Ammon came to be identified with Zeus in Ancient Greece.

Cheers!

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What will 1914 (DROPPED) mean for you (EX-JW)

by John Aquila in

let's pretend this might happen.

im not asking what it will mean for the jdubs or for the organization, but what will it mean for you---- if one day you wake up and the watchtower drops the 1914 doctrine.. (you know at some point they have to, but probably not our lifetime).

if you are disfellowshipped or disassociated and have been shunned by your parents, by your children, by you spouse or ex-husband/wife, for years or even less, will you call your relatives and ask/tell them;.

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1914, great sense for debate with my mother in the past. I gave up on my mother accepting me for understanding the real truth to many matters. 15 years ago, I told her I did not believe any more and she said she could not talk to me any more. She missed my children's birth and growing up. She recently texted me, "Son I love you and miss you". I immediately texted her back that I love them and wish for them to be in my life again. Although she is still a regular pioneer in her 70's, she expressed that she love's me, and wants to see us. We now visit them and the JW theme is avoided, the real truth wins again. "Respect!"

"Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood".

George Orwell, 1984.

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Need advice: Intimacy with my wife almost non existint because she considers me an apostate

by goingthruthemotions in

just on of the perks of being an apostate who is married to a branwashed, blinded jw woman.

you know, we have been married for ~27 years....most of which we had nothing to do with the piece of shite cult.

up till the begining of 2014 was when i woke up.

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At that point, take care of your needs. If you must live with her, then see her as a roommate. culture something good for you, out of that arrangement. Make sure you consider yourself worthy of taking care of your "Maslow's hierarchy of needs".